Friday, December 11, 2009


The last few weeks have been...well...hectic, crazy, fun, exhilarating, exhausting, exciting and...draining.

I've been working like mad. The holidays are a busy time, even more so if you work in the food industry. It's amazing how many parties and events I've been apart of yet have not attended. Work has seemed to monopolize all of my time and energy. I moved this week, apparently. I still have tons of things at my old place that are not even packed. I have no idea when I will be able to pack my shit. Oh man, not complaining....ok, maybe a little but this is the life that I have chosen and I DO love what I do.

Sixty plus hours a week and only one day off in over a month and a half is what's been going on. I think I've reached the point where I am not as productive. I find myself sometimes unfocused and slow. I do need to rest but how do I tell my employers that I cannot be there at their busiest time ever, when they really need me and I used to beg for hours during slow times? How? And come January, when it's slow I'll be scraping for nickels and dimes. - You just don't! Ten more days until a day off.

I've burnt out. That's done, but this is what keeps me going:
  • I love what I do
  • I adore a lot of the people I work with
  • the vibe in the kitchen
  • the madness and chaos that patrons do not see
  • hugs and kisses
  • the sense of pride when I create something delicious and beautiful
  • pride
  • being a part of a team that is going through the same intensity
  • the hope that I will learn something new
  • the hope that my effort and dedication will lead me to a better place
  • butter, sugar and chocolate - come on now!
  • useless yet amusing banter of cooks and chefs
I don't need to keep reminding myself of why I do what I do, I feel it in my heart every day that I wake up. No pain no gain, right? Well I definitely feel the pain.

1 comment:

  1. i should hope the excitement of seeing ME is also keeping you going. yeh me!